If you kept her even though you wanted to send her back...
If you held your tongue when you wanted to scream...
If you got up this morning to do it all over again...
Let me be the first to say, "Well done."
Maybe it didn't look that good. Maybe your words didn't sound that great. Maybe it was your worst day ever.
It doesn't matter because you stayed in the game.
That's what counts.
You deserve a high five.
Eventually it will look different.
One day you won't have to talk yourself into keeping her or not screaming at her. One day you won't have to drag yourself out of bed in the morning to face her.
If that day isn't today, rest assured, it will come.
Until then, keep moving forward. This adoption journey isn't an easy one, but it certainly is rewarding.
It just might not feel like it today.