Thursday, April 9, 2015

The Day I've Been Waiting For

This is it.  The day she turns 18.  The day I marked nine years ago as my day of freedom.

I looked forward to this day every minute for almost two years.  But then I stopped.

She's no longer the ten-year-old with a chip on her shoulder.  She's no longer the screaming tantrum thrower.  She's no longer unpleasant or awkward or shady.

And because of that, this isn't the day I thought it would be.

Because this girl makes me laugh everyday...

She is more generous with her time and money than anyone I have ever met and she loves Jesus more than anything else.

She's so easy to love and I can't imagine a day without her.

Yes, I just said that.

For those of you in the trenches, living at the starting line of your adoption journey, know that I am there too.  But I'm nearing the finish line at the same time.  I have one that just moved in and has brought all the emotions and turmoil that comes with the beginning.  And I have another that feels so natural I forget we don't share the same bloodline.

Do you know what that gives me everyday?  Hope.

When the days are long and her rough edges cut deep, I see the one that came first.

When she's loud and rude and I'm certain she is never going to understand, I see the one that came first.

When I'm tired and frustrated and want to give up, I see the one that came first.

She's beautiful, this 18-year-old of mine.  In all ways.  Absolutely beautiful.

So this morning I let her sleep in and then celebrated who she is all day long.  Because who she is is more than I could ever have imagined.  God is faithful.  I see that faithfulness everyday as she emerges from under her covers to greet another morning.

In the beginning I couldn't imagine it would ever be this amazing.  Now, I can't imagine it any other way.

Yes, the new one is a challenge, but that's okay, because I've seen how it all can end.

She's mine. She's lovely. And today she turns 18.

Happy Birthday sweet Hannah.

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